maxterspade12ph

Posted by maxterspade12ph at 07:49 AM on July 19, 2005.

what's with the name ba? who is behind this name?

 hi it is me, i am jaypee, a.k.a maxterspade12ph. name po ng gundam yan, dinagdagan ng 12 dahil 12 pa lang ako noon at ph dahil sa ph na dinagdag sa jose para maging joseph. others would say it is for our country the philippines, pero actually, secondary reason lang yun. my brothers have the same type of sn's : rapidfire14ph tsaka squall13ph. lahat kami may ph kasi lahat kami joseph. astig noh?

 currently, i am `19 years old, taking up interdisciplinary business studies, feeling attached ako pero actually i am single, an aspirant for the de la salle brothers, account consultant for the de la salle alumni, lasallian animator for the lasallian pastoral office, assistant supervisor para sa forever living philippines, at nothing para sa maraming tao.

 others se me as a lively class clown, well ok lang yun kasi i need attention. may sakit ata akong ADHD

i would like to thank tabulas for giving me the opportunity to write everything about me online. and let others see me. one person realy influenced me to do this. actually, nainggit ako sa kanya, kaya gawa rin ako nito.

marami pang pwedeng isulat, pero this would not meet my title, self-titled entry ito. kaya it would be used to describe myself. 

Currently listening to: let me blow your mind
Currently feeling: inaantok pa

makialam ka!

mixed emotions

Posted by maxterspade12ph at 04:42 AM on July 20, 2005.

currently, i am doing my project paper about bangus industry in the philippines. It is for a big time subjct called econtri. On a rush kami ngayon dahil deadline. keyword: stressed

 yesterday, i had an impromptu movie date with special someone, it was really good. I had so much fun. keyword: happy

 despite of a really good time, a little quarrel broke out because of some story one was so curious to know and the other really wants privacy for some reason. keyword: angry

tomorow, there will be a talk for vocations, i will go to greenhills at 8am, then go back to taft for 11am class. what a day's start. keyword: expecting

later, there will be a corporate sponsorship report sponsored by our group. I need to be in business attire. keyword: feeling

right now, i don't know. I want to be angry, I want to be happy, I want everything. kyword: interdisciplinary

 o really, this would be a very bad day. My cellphone's broke and i can't text. O GOD.

Currently feeling: pathetic

makialam ka!

new morning

Posted by maxterspade12ph at 05:55 AM on July 21, 2005.

actually, i have nothing good to write. i just want to add something to what i would alow others to read. kasi, baka may nagbabasa na nito, tapos, boring dahil dalawa pa lang ang entries.

umagang umagaa, and i have a great day ahead of me. sobrang great. in two hours, dapat nasa grenhills na ko having a talk. tapos, mamaya, dapat nasa meeting ako with my groupmates sa marketing comunications. hehe. yun pa naman yung groupmates na ayaw isama yung insights ko.

i think, there is a very bad side of me na sobrang bad. i tend to become selfish. i do not trust anyone. sobra akong conceited. should i not be? i think, i should not. a ewan, mahirap i-express pero sa mga nakakapansin, salamat.

o sige, this new day would be started by a breakfast. kain muna ako, then ligo, then bihis, then off to greenhills kahit medyo kumukulog.  

kung sino ka man nagbabasa, alam mo mahal kita. 

Currently feeling: peaceful

makialam ka!

Vocation Talk

Posted by maxterspade12ph at 09:42 PM on July 21, 2005 in Personal Development.

astig sa greenhills, we had this vocation talk for 4th year HS students. maganda ang naging takbo ng talk lalo na sa open forum. personal questions really came out. siyempre, malaki ang naitulong ng planted questions like, may girlfriend ka ba? hehe.. astig noh?

 I went there early in the morning. nakarating ako ng matiwasay. wala naman gaano problema dahil may g-liner naman e. kahit puno yung bus, at medyo napaaga ako, pero tamang tama lang. anndun si Alex and si Gari and si Sockie, Bro JJ, Bro Allan, at marami pang iba. masaya yung klase na binigyan namin ng talk.

 May bading sa klase, nagtanong kung tumitira daw sa kumbento ang brothers. natatawa na lang kami kasi ang kumbento, para sa mga madre lang. e dahil nga bading yun, alam mo na.

 High school pa talaga sila, tumatayo pag nagsasalita. tapos, pumipila. pero antatangkad nila. husto ang sustansya.

I was so inspired by the talk. hindi ata para sa mga bata yun e. para ata sa mga aspirants. there are only 42 brothers left throughout the Philippines. at ang dinadasal nila is for God to bless tomorrow with more men in robes. syet, we are needed talaga. 

well, so far. ok ang level ko sa aspirancy, pero i still doubt it kung tutuloy nga talaga ako. bahala na. it is not yet time to decide pa e. saka ko na iisipin kapag hinihingi na ng community.

 so i left the place in a fast walk. nag bus papuntang taft at nag jeep. mura lang, kasi parati akong student fare. pero, i got there with uncertainty, and i left with fond memories. not everyone can have it!

Currently feeling: touched

makialam ka!

T290i

Posted by maxterspade12ph at 06:51 AM on July 26, 2005.

hehe. i got a hand on a my new cellphone. it is a T290i. It goes with the usual features of call and text. may GPRS xa at MMS, kahit wala pang ganun ang sun cellular. wala akong bluetooth kahit colored ang cell phone ko. basically, hindi siya ganun kaganda but for me, it is the best. I am for the signal sa loob ng bahay, not for any other feats.

i got it for about 2800. mura na yun compared to the bid of others na 3600. maganda yung pagkaka-canvass ko at nakuha ko ng 2800. May kumag kasi dyan na ibebenta raw ang cellphone niya sa akin kaso sinira naman niya. Hindi ko pa tuloy mabayaran yung utang ko sa kanya ngayon.

1.5 x 4 ang size niya. it is black. mahirap pa i-personalize yung settings e. I need more pictures and more ringtunes. sana may mabait na magturo sa akin kung papaano. tamad ako magbasa ng manual.

so that's about it. I acquired it ng SONA day. hope that it would last. you can all text me in my sun cell number 09224264746. kahapon, i got loads of text messages from someone, i won't tell who. may isang ayaw ata magtext sakin, at may isa pang textmate. hehe. Am so happy I can ttext sa loob ng bahay!

Currently reading: Harry Potter
Currently feeling: happy

makialam ka!

Wag ka kulit

Posted by maxterspade12ph at 05:38 PM on July 26, 2005.

Ganun na ba ako kakulit? I think, hindi, pero for other people who are so busy with something else, siguro Oo.

I got this text message from someone who is having her class. As for me, I am in a group meeting consolidating some important group project, and out of the fact that i miss her, I texted her, "tapos na clas?" then this reply came into my new T290i, and I was shocked. After the group meeting, I needed to contemplate and be very meditative. Am I really that makulit?

Siguro, I would joke around everyone, sit beside them, walk by them, say nothing, and then I can be makulit. Siguro, I would ask the stupidest questions in times of crisis, I would give out the silliest suggestion and I would comment the weirdest ideas, then I would be makulit. And still this one is different.

The difference is that, I expect something positive back, and my means do not help out at all. Siguro, this someone thought that all I did was not necessary, I think I feel this way because this someone is so much dear for me that I can give up everything for her. She is so special that pagiging makulit at times would be so much for her to handle.

I think there would be other people worth my abilities, time and effort, not only her. I would try more not to concentrate my energy in one thing. Besides, I should be interdisciplinary. 

Currently feeling: uncomfortable

makialam ka!

Tin's fashion show

Posted by maxterspade12ph at 10:23 AM on July 30, 2005.

last night, tin won the best designer overall. ang galing talaga. I was there. masaya sobra, ange, clif, and pong were also there.

nahirapan kami pumunta dahil hindi namin alam ang lugar. nagkaligawligaw pa kami. ganun namin kamahal si tin . our hardshipps bore good results naman.

parang pageant ang pag announce ng winner. five contestants were drawn out then, paakyat ang pagtawag. so, si tin ang huling tinawag. it was so good, hindi naman talagang model yung model niya, tin was thinking of backing out. andami pero sinunod lang daw niya ang sinabi ng horoscope, think positive.

thisevent would be reported sa aking markeve. but it will forever stay in our blogs, tabulas, memories, and most especially, our hearts.

Currently feeling: cheerful

makialam ka!

Text Messages

Posted by maxterspade12ph at 02:17 AM on August 1, 2005.

Hindi ganoon ka-importane ang text messages ngayon. Hindi naman kasi siya ganoon kasakit sa bulsa lalo na kapag naka sun cellular ka. so, ang gawain ng ibang tao, basta may quote pasa, tapos bura. bihira na ngayon ang taong nag-iisp na, uy, kailangan niya tong message na ito. itetext ko sa kanya.

Pero, naranasan mo na ba mapaiyak sa text messages? oo, ako, sa jeep. pauwi na ako noon, katatapos ko lang magserve, at dahil medyo alam ni father abet ang istorya ng buhay ko, bumabanat siya sa homily. nakakainis dahil nasa harapan ako, at hindi ako pwede magpahalata na umiiyak na ako.  tapos na sana ang sarili kong paghikbi, kaso may isang tao diyan, alam mo kung sino ka, na nagtext sa akin. friendly quotes lang pero sa sitwasyon ko noon, nakakaiyak talaga siya.

alam mo yung gusto mo may taong magtext sa iyo, hindi naman yung magrereport siya, iparamdam niya lang na andyan pa siya. pero wala e, siya pa yung pilit na lumalayo. hindi ko siya masisisi dahil alam ko na marami siyang pinagkakaabalahan, pero hindi ko maiaalis sa sistema ko ang mag-isip, kumusta na kaya siya? di bale nang wala nang ibang magtext sa akin, kumustahin niya lang ako, kahit isang beses lang, at kahit kasinungalingan pang "ok lang" ang isagot ko, magiging masaya na ako.

tapos, may isa pang textmate na lilipad papuntang txas. wala pong roaming ang sun cellular, e-mail na naman kami nita. haaay, mababawasan na naman ang silbi ng unlimited.

sa mga naka unlimited dyan, text naman kayo, kumustahan tayo, kahit hindi tayo mareplyan, ok lang basta napaabot natin na nagmamalasakit tayo, na nandyan pa rin tayo, kahit lobat na at mage-expire na ang unlimited, kahit sa last day lang kayo magtext, ok na yun, basta naramdaman natin na nagload naman tayo kahit papano.

Currently feeling: uncomfortable

makialam ka!