Entries for June, 2007
Written by maxterspade12ph at 11:06 AM.
ngayon ko lang hindi nasulit ang birthday promo ko sa warzone. nakadalawang laro lang ako ng dota. talo pa yung pangalawa. nagkamali kasi ng pasok, tapos ayun, turning point na nung laro. pero masaya na rin kasi panalo yung una, techies yun e... mastered ko na talaga yung hero na yun. i can say i am ready for sunday's game with people support players.
started the day sa office. ended the day sa office.. ganyan talaga. satisfied na kasi ako sa bday bash ko nun 27 e.
pero nag dinner ako sa brothers, para libre at masarap. ahaha.
i already graduated. napakasaya dahil meron kaming commencement excercises na sabi ni papaA, kakaiba daw yun kasi wala naman talagang ganun. ako naghost. on the spot pa nga kami gumawa ng graduation pledge and prayer.
looking forward to everything. pero syempre, segway muna sa ibang bagay.
Written by maxterspade12ph at 09:10 AM.
"sometimes, the risk of letting go is the only incredible thing one could do to know who's willing enough to look stupid just to come back."
changes, changes, changes...
andaming nagbago since my 21st birthday. i am now living along taft avenue and parati akong nagta-taxi papasok ng trabaho. ang aga naman kasi at walang jeep na masasakyan. 3am. 60pesos. pero ok lang kasi ang kapalit nito, buhay sa hapon. pero sana lang, ma experience ko naman ang mag jeep-bus. pero kailangan gumising ng maaga.
dumating na ang dual core na pc tapos na update na raw yung video card. ang problema, wala ako sa sta.mesa para ma gamit yung pc na yun. hindi pa ko nakakapag adik sa RF ngayon e. pero syempre nakakapagdota ako. may nagbukas na dalawang bagong comp shop along taft. mura lang, kaya di na ako tumatambay gaano sa warzone.
most of the people i know is on the verge of change. meron gagraduate na, merong nasa thesis na, merong kakapasa pa lang ng board exam, merong pumasok na sa greenhills, merong mga bagong panganak/binyag, merong mga kakapanalo lang sa eleksyon, andami sobra. sana nasusundan ng kanilang mga mahal sa buhay ang mga pagbabagong ito. sana sinusuportahan sila ng lahat ng nasa paligid nila ang kanilang mga desisyon.
in every change, mayroong mga naiiwan, mayroong mga nagtatagpo, mayroong nagkakahiwalay ng landas, at mayroong nabibigkis na bago. I, personally, do not want break ups and divisions but it certainly is inevitable. pero there is always a break in the road where you can steer your wheel and make a u-turn. sana lang, meron kang babalikan pa.
** really, if i make that turn now, it would not workout, but i wish you can support me still, and in return, i will always glance back. let us just see each other in front of the fountain. you know how i feel and it won't change.
{ music } khooo khooo
{ mood } uncomfortable
Written by maxterspade12ph at 06:00 AM.
"nice keys," a voice so normal and you would know that the person who said it is not taking calls now. and he is referring to your strange looking keys chained in a black chain lock with a normal key on the other side. it also has a green keychain with all caps scripting that says, *IF FOUND, PLEASE RETURN TO DLSU - GUESTMASTER.. i wonder if everyone can read the script or they only just stare at the key.
It was morning, most of the agents already left the floor, for most agents in this account shifts during graveyard. all left was a handful of agents waiting for calls that come in every after 20 minutes. i was lucky enough to have some of my calls and issue the resolution in about 5minutes or so and lower my average handling time.
it was a stressful day, and i am the only one left from batch 60 that still stays on the floor. most of my co-graduates of the recently commenced batch 60 are on rest day today. i have no one to talk to, and so i surf the internet and read some entries of other online diaries.
some more calls came in as i was in the middle of an account of a mother's post about her 1yr old child named Evan. Half laughing - half awake, i am aware of the things around me. the empty deska, turned off pcs, spinning chairs, and the rowdy agents on the next row. i usually stand up when a familiar noise of stress ball playing comes up but most of the time, i was sitting down, next to me strangely made keys.
at last it was 12nn. it was time to log out of my computer and my avaya phone, wrap up my headset, bring it back to the steel safe and walk away, just in time to get to the brother's house and eat lunch before the in house cook finishes his wrap up first.
walking through the desserted corridor, i noticed some mail agents on their work. they are newly found friends that has the same level of interest in basketball like me. they asked me if i can join them in san antonio in 2 hours time to play ball, which i humbly decline because i have some other plans in the evening and i needed some rest for now. before i walked away, they again noticed my strange looking keys, "is that a key for a bank's safe?" "no" i said, "it is an elevator key."
"are you teammates with cel?" i asked ronnie as i saw her along with other teammates of cel. they are packing up for a team building. "no, we are not in the same team. i am just joining them for this trip" ronnie said in reply as she was glancing at me and the keys that i am holding. we waved then goodbye after a few minutes of small chat. my excuse for leaving is that i am already hungry and i need to catch a bus.
and yes, the bus is waiting on the shade. strangely still, the bus conductor asked me for P15 instead of the usual P12 or P10. i was a little pissed off while getting a few more coins from my purse and handed it to the not so good looking conductor. the bus battled through the busy streets of makati and pasay and finally arrived at the corner of estrada st. and taft ave. i dropped off and ran a little faster this time for i am hungry and the traffic light is blinking red, signaling pedestrians that it is yellow already for the main traffic lights.
i reached the gate and entered the shade when i discovered something is missing. my keys are not in my front pockets, neither in my back nor my secret pockets. the keys are missing. and they are keys for the elevator. the only way to go up is through the guards at the gate. i gathered my courage and asked them if they can lend me their keys just for this once. i got up, still searching for the keys, and said to myself, "the keys are meant to be lost today."
{ mood } crappy
Written by maxterspade12ph at 08:53 AM.
d ba sabi ko sayo pag kailangan mo ako, sabihin mo lang..
Written by maxterspade12ph at 09:31 AM.
champagne supernova
by: Oasis
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova in the sky
Wake up the dawn and ask her why
A dreamer dreams, she never dies
Wipe that tear away now from your eye
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(guitar solo)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
Slowly walking down the hall
Faster than a cannonball
Where were you while we were getting high?
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova in the sky
Someday you will find me
Caught beneath the landslide
In a champagne supernova
A champagne supernova
'Cuz we don't believe
That they're gonna get away from the summer
But you and I will never die
The world's still spinning around we don't know why
Why-why-why-why-i-i
(a really long guitar solo)
(background - sounds like a bunch of "No"'s)
(birds chirping)
(more guitar)
How many special people change?
How many lives are living strange?
Where were you while we were getting high?
We were getting high <-- 9 times, background "Oooh-oooh"
(Fades out 7th-9th times to just one "Oooh-oooh"
(Song gets really quiet, fades to a peaceful guitar solo.)
Written by maxterspade12ph at 03:12 AM.
"Freedom is a right of every sentient being" - Optimus Prime
"Parang 300 lang, kaso puro robot." ganun ang description namin sa hottest movie of this week, Transformers. Would you believe, nauna pa ang release date ng movie na ito sa Pinas ng limang araw kumpara sa release date sa states? Kahit na nanalo ang autobots, namatay naman si jazz (yung pontiac).
Nabasa ko na rin yung latest libro ni Bob Ong. MacArthur ang title nun libro. para sa mga walang alam, ang tae na binuhusan mo na, na-flush mo na at lahat, pero ayaw pa rin lumubog, MacArthur ang tawag dun. "I shall return." namatay rin nga yung isang bida dito na si Voltron. Tapos, may namatay na lolo sa bandang dulo ng story. Iba talaga magsulat si Bob Ong, kaya niya ako paiyakin at patawanin ng magkasunod na magkasunod, na halos sabay na nga e. kaso ayoko talaga makitaan ng pagkabaliw. iba ang level niya kay PMJR na nagpapatawa lang.
sa parehong pagkakataon, nabuhay ang mga kataga sa title ng blog ko na ito. kailangan talaga ng sakripisyo para sa tagumpay. fiction lang pareho pero sobrang nadama ko kung gaano nagiging totoo yung mga sinasabi ni michael bay at ni bob ong. ang tanong ko nga matapos ko mapanood yung transformers, "kailangan ba talaga ng sakripisyo para makakamit ng tunay na tagumpay? hindi ba pwedeng ipagpaliban na lang ang sakripisyo?" pagkatapos kong basahin yung MacArthur, nasagot ang tanong ko ng isang malaking "H I N D E !!"
at sa buhay ko ngayon, hindi ko alam kung dapat gumaya ako ke Noel at subukang bumalik sa amin. Hindi naman kami pareho ng sitwasyon dahil siya, wala siyang kwenta at wala siyang pakinabang sa kanila. ako, namimiss ko lang talaga ang bahay namin, pati na ang mga kapatid ko. pero sakripisyo yun sa parte ko dahil mas malaking responsibilidad ang kakaharapin ko. sabi ko nga sa latest post ko, "hindi ako leaver, at kung saan ako mas kinakailangan, dun ako."
e pano naman ang pangangailangan ko?
simple lang ang sagot. uulitin ko lang ang title;
"NO SACRIFICE, NO VICTORY!!" - sam witwicky