Entries for August, 2007
Written by maxterspade12ph at 11:12 AM. Filed under Personal Development.
someone is leaving. iiwanan na kami. at malaking responsibility ang iiwanan niya. and as far as i am concerned, obviously, i am the one to replace him in his post. no other aspirant is senior enough to take it but me.
mukhang he is leaving the group. nagpatawag na siya ng special meeting this saturday. nakakalungkot sobra kasi maiiwan ako mag-isa sa community. the sole resident aspirant ako ngayon. i am the closest to the brothers and i will surely be taking the position as coordinator. i can definitely take the post and do well kaso mababangga ang schedules ko. mukhang made-delay na naman ang aking pag focus sa mga bagay na matagal nang nag-aantay ng aking atensyon.
this has been a topic in my reddition. i do not feel like a resident, i still feel like a guest, for i do not have the responsibilities that a resident has. blessing in disguise? i don't know.
mahirap pero kakayanin. when that meeting concludes, ako naman ang magpapatawag ng meeting sa mga kampeon. ako naman ang maglalabas ng sama ng loob. i need my support team. masaya na nga ako dahil naka-sched na kami ni hazel for something tonight. alam ko na ang mangyayari and i have 3 days to prepare. i should not be caught unarmed.
what prepared me? my reddition, a date and a whole set of characters in granado espada.
looking forward to so many things. bob sledder na ako ngayon. 11.30 na start ng shift ko. so many adjustments. second wave na ata ng adjustments ko ito for the year. i feel like a lasallian again. back to trimester program. adjusting everytime, and doing well on it.
champions, let us relive ourselves being knights once more. gallantry, honor, pride and power. please back me up. i'll be the starter and i am holding to the promise that you will be with me, until the last tower.
"you never knew discipline until you knew independence" - Bro. Vic Franco FSC..
Written by maxterspade12ph at 08:30 AM.
Clifford Tan, a name that all of us remembers. he was born in july but nobody really knows the exact date nor the exact year. even us, who are friends with him for a long time since HS, would not know when. plainly because when it is july, days around his birthday, he would start treating the people around him by batches.
whenever i think of KNP, clifford would be the first one that will go to my mind. he is very enthusiastic about our team name. the name was created years back and still exists up to now. it has evolved to several translations, all through the efforts of clifford, but still when the name KNP is being said, although clifford is just KNP#2, it would still be his name that would come in.
spoiled yet smart, that is how i would describe clifford. he may look crazy enough for all the dances and joking he would do around everyone he knows and does not know yet but he lives his life on every second. there is a plan set up for him but he usually does not take it. i don't know if he does not like it at all because i know he is capable of doing it. maybe he is just being disobedient. he simply fuses the 2 S's perfectly that makes him attractive to the world.
it is only i and clifford who passed ACET back in HS, that means we are the only ones smart and spoiled enough, but then again, we chose DLSU still because it is where our friends are. just like him, i value friendship more than anything else right now. maybe that is why we stay up on the start til the end of my birthday for 2 years running now.
so now, what more do i know of clifford apart from him being single for the longest time that he is available. do not really know if he waiting for the right one, still bitter with the last one, or just not too much excited that there is someone close to him yet he does not really like that person. i don't know to him exactly, he does not tell his story much like i do, but we still support him, after all, he is still KNP.
all i cay to him is good luck. i know it is very hard when you are expecting something that because of certain circumstances that you had control for a time, but you did not do really well on it. i know the feeling really but all you can say to the ones expecting such achievement is sorry. you can not explain anything brother, again all you can do is apologize. yes, it is a mistake, not solely from you but by many other factors yet again, for KNP's sake take the blame. take one for the team. we will be here, and yes we will, all in the name of love.
"tell me who your friends are, and i will tell you who you are."
{ book } king of torts
Written by maxterspade12ph at 02:50 AM.
the sky is darker than usual, and no superhero can do something about this. Seems like storm, the mutant who controls the weather, is so upset on what has happened. And I know that she can do nothing about it. It was our choice, not only yours, not only mine, but ours.
Remember Wednesday, coming home from work is a hassle. Roads are crowded with vehicles; heavy traffic on certain places, cars could not pass because of knee level floods. Classes on schools are called off and we have schedule of a battle, my team against someone else’s team. But the flooded streets did not stop us. The cloudy skies did not give us fear. We stayed, we fought, and we won.
Remember Thursday, a scheduled basketball practice was in line. San Antonio covered court. We were short by one person, yet we invited some locals to play with us just to complete the lineup. We played our hearts out, we sweat, we were thirsty for coke and we decided to be married. And yes, the skies were still cloudy, classes and the UAAP were called off, but us, we still did what our schedule has. We played.
Remember Friday, a day of hard rain. A new typhoon took its winds and waters on our lands. Streets that were almost dry became flooded again, and I thought of you. How are you doing right now, I thought of them as well and what we were supposed to do. I was a halfway on the book I was reading then I fell asleep. Yet everything I did was still on my schedule, I was supposed to take a good rest that day. And I did.
Remember Saturday, UAAP has been called off again but our game was not. I played almost two full quarters and released all toxins through sweat again, wasn’t panting but was tired. Got home two hours before a meeting but I drank a bottle of beer, not because I was thinking again of you but I felt like I needed it. I will be the one presiding the second meeting tonight and I needed a drink. Power naps here and there. Everything was called off because of the rain, but I did not fret, I did what I am scheduled to do. I finished it well.
Today Sunday, I am about to get a good rest. Go back to the home base; recharge the feeling, the emotion, and the excitement. I missed this event, and more than anything else, I missed you. I am currently busy with many things and by far, will be busier the next days. This is the time we gather, we regroup, we empower, before we go out again to the world and fight for what we believe in.
I have made my choices, while you have made yours. But keep this in mind, I have planned for this already, and the future was shuffled as well. And doing this decision would make us closer to our goal. Let us keep our fingers crossed and remember, it has rained ever since.
Written by maxterspade12ph at 04:26 PM.
after all of my accomplishments. a week that i and my team fought hard, now we are humbled.
forgive me my warriors. it is i who have failed you.
and we will rise on the occassion
with a true heart of a champion
for now let us rest
and recharge.
Written by maxterspade12ph at 03:41 PM.
hawak mo ang oras. hawak mo kung ano ang pwede mangyari.
ngayon, gusto ko pumunta ng cebu. gusto kita hanapin. gusto kita makita. gusto kita makausap at sabihin sa iyo ang mga plano ko. mga plano na noon pa lang ay naisulat na. mga plano na alam ng aking mga malalapit na kaibigan. mga plano na handang iwan ang lahat pag dating ng nakatakda. mga plano para maging handa ako. mga plano para paghandaan mo rin. mga plano na kasama ka.
pero hindi ko ikinuwento ang mga plano na iyon sa iyo dahil takot ako. baka matulad tayo dati na nakalatag na ang dapat mangyari. na dapat tapusin ko ang ginagawa ko, pero hindi ko natapos. oo pumalpak ako. pero sinikap ko. kahit papaano ginawan ko ng paraan.
ngayon, ikaw naman ang nag-iisip. nagpipinta ng larawan na gusto mong makita. at pagbalik mo saka mo lang siya ipagsasakatuparan. hiling ko lang na ang mga obra natin ay magtugma. gusto ko sana na kung ano ang ipininta mo, ang akin naman ay ganoon rin ang itsura, mula lang sa ibang anggulo. pero hindi ko maipipilit yun.
antayin mo ako. kung hindi mo kaya, bumalik ka. pangako ko sa iyo gagawin ko ang gusto mo. tatlong beses mo ako tinanong tungkol dito pero sabi ko hindi. pero kulang ang narinig mo na sagot ko. ang sabi ko hindi ngayon. alam kong hindi ako handa para don ngayon, at ang pagsugod sa isang laban na hindi handa ay kaduwagan. alam ko hindi mo naiintindihan, kaya nga gusto kita makita at makausap.
ngayon ako naman ang humihingi. hindi ko hinihiling na ako ay pagbigyan, gusto ko lang malaman mo kung ano ang nasa isip ko.
"to retreat is for the brave, because to fight back is for the coward who needs to prove something."