November 27, 2009
I am on the same road again two years ago.
Written by camrivera at 09:04 AM.
How would you want me to react? I felt something different from that post and it made me broke down.
I thought everything were okay between us. You told me that you'll never fool me and our relationship will not reach the point of having a "third party". However, everything changed when I saw the wall post of your friend on your Facebook profile. It says there, "Have you seen Apple?". From that moment, my heart ponded so hard. I stuttered when I read it. Then, I immediately asked you about it. You explained your side to me but still, for me that was not enough. I can't see the truthness in your words because of the way I saw it. It's not that I don't believe you, it's just so hard to understand that post. First, if that was nothing then why do you and your friends have to talk about her? Second, it she was nothing for you, then why of all your barkadas you were the only one who was tagged in? Now tell me, how will I react?
I'm not being judgemental but your actions showed something different. I thought everything were clear until this day arrived. I did everything for you. I gave all of myself just to satisfy your heart. Still, you did this to me. Everything felt like I was on the same relationship two years ago where all I felt was hurt and pain. Sigh. Thank you for hurting me again! 
{ music } BREAK UP by mario
{ mood } sad
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November 23, 2009
Written by maine12 at 12:21 AM.
finally nkapagpa footspa at pedi din after how many months o year pa ata..hehe next time pa haircolor naman & haircut na din?haay miss ko na gawin mga yun...
feeling ko nababawasan na time ko sa sarili ko. tas i need to gain weight din xe di na ko natutuwa sa katawan ko super payat ko na , o well sbi nga daw ng lolo ko baka di ko hiyang sa callcenter, baka nga , xe bitin talaga tulog ko tas xempre pag off ko naman di ko makatulog ng isang buong araw..haha xempre gusto ko naman makisalamuha sa ibang tao..
grabe narealize ko para na kong alien at di ko na alam mga balita..
haay..
pero ayun buti at kahit papano medyo naeenjoy ko din work lalo na pag avail, tas chikahan at tawanan ginagawa namin ..hehe
pero kung work naku work talaga queuing kung queuing ang drama.galit2 muna kami at halos maubos na laway ko..
iniisip ko pa din ano kayang effective way para magkalaman naman ako..
parang kahit ano gawin ko lalo lang ko pumapayat which is not good dahil baka masobrahan e maging tingting na talaga ako.. haay 
makialam ka!
November 21, 2009
INUMAN na! haha..
Written by ladyapril01 at 12:35 PM.
wee.. yes!yes! this is it! triple celebration na and and2 na cla ate..
today is the super bongga na celebration! pero un nga lng late akong dumating because i have my saturday class..
i started this day by having my 1st subject and instructor koh tatay koh.. muzta nman un db?? hehe.. masaya nman and they made us realize na seryosohan na ang thesis B.. dming mga bloopers and kata2wanan kaya enjoy, after that kumain n and tambay mode sa gym kc 1 p ung next class and naka2twa kc c papa andun n agad sa bahay nla lola knowing na knina nag-class p smin and around 11:30 andun n cla ate huhu.. ako n lng daw wala.. hayz! pano b nman super konsensya mga classmates koh na kpg di dw ako pumasok ggya cla skin.. mga baliw! hihi..
ayun, medyo inaantok sa class ni sir eudz kc we didn't expect na mala-PROGRAMMING nnman pla ung class nmin sa knla, PHP cya, prang HTML pero naka2antok p rn tlga and we didn't expect dn n cla professor nmin.. lahat kmi tlga inaantok, buti may mga exercises and jokes c sir.. hihi.. and i'm also wishing na mg-4pm na kc txt ng txt cla ate n nag-iinuman n dw na ganito n kailangan koh n dw pumunta kc dmi koh n dw nami2z.. hay! we ended our class ky sir by finishing an exercise and nakktwa kc akala nmin kmi unang mata2poz un pla hndi.. haha.. and gnwa kc nmin code ng HTML and hndi PHP kya mali at ito pa kmi ang HULING natapoz.. haha.. so nagtwanan n lng kmi nla jM and tae..
nung pauwi na tlgang super bilis akong naglakad and nagpahinga sa bus, katext rn c ozeph sa mga bagay-bagay.. when i arrived, wla n tlgang tao sa haus.. huhu.. kaya ng-bihiz ako agad at pumunta n kila lola kc maski su2ndo skin ala n dw kc lht lasing na.. (tlaga lng ha) hehe.. pagdating koh, totoo nga lasing na clang lahat, eh hndi nman ako pwede uminom kc alang laman tiyan koh at UBOS na.. haha.. buti na lng may puto na andun, super dming puto.. ang sarap-sarap tlga! as in! un ang ngpaligaya sa heart koh.. hihi.. around 7pm ako kumain with my cousins and nabgla ata ako kaya di koh naubos kinuha koh ;p hehe.. super sarap nung foods kaya pinilit koh na lng ubusin.. after nun, puto ulit and kwentuhan ng konti..
all of us wants to taste the new THE BAR apple flavor kaya gnwa nmin lahat to have a sponsor.. haha.. and pano ang ngng labanan?? we did have a competition with the boyz, kc ung mga boyz ung madaming money samin.. haha.. syempre andun c papa, isa sa mga stock holders.. haha.. pano ung ngng competition?? we did sing a same song, ung theme song nmin ky nanay, ung iingatan ka and unfortunately, natalo kmi huhu.. pano b nman nag-daya cla, solo ung gnwa nla at c tito rey p ung pinili nla eh singer kaya c tito rey, ung smin kc group tlga ung kumanta! hmp! 94 kmi tpz cla 97.. tsk!tsk!tsk!
after our defeat, hndi prn kmi ngpatalo.. haha.. tlgang sa lahat ng kinakanta nmin may "THE BAR" na naba2nggt kaya nata2wa kmi.. haha.. at nagwagi kmi sa huli.. whaha.. the THE BAR ung binili nmin, cnamahan koh c insan and ksama nmin c neneng.. hehe.. the taste of THE BAR is great! di n kailangan ng ice tea kya nga grabe effect skin knowing na may allergy ako.. kmi-kmi ang umubos kc natulog n mga tita koh, naka2antok dw lasa.. hehe.. pano b nman ng-san mig lights na cla kaya ala n rn gana..
while drinking, singing mode ang arte nmin.. hehe.. maaga natapoz ung party, around 11pm ata natapz kc pagod dn lhat sa biyahe, and final song ung GRABE by insan mae kaya ang saya despite na lasing na tlga kmi.. haha..
i texted him also and i've come on the conclusion na i need to forget all my expectations to him kc ala n tlga magyayari.. this day is one the greatest bondings that we have and a pain reality on my side..
good night..
makialam ka!
November 21, 2009
set this in stone please
Written by flyfree at 10:42 AM.
or in tagalog, itaga mo ito sa bato.
if E and I do somehow end up together, i will not, WILL not, absolutely f**king will not:
1. include the pig and her little piglet in the entourage. i do not care if they cry, beg, or blackmail me. we are not going to make dresses that look like suman just to please their egos.
2. invite the pig and her piglet to the wedding at all, though this may be harder to accomplish since the pig is E's blood relative.
3. have them spend alone time with the kids if E and i have kids. in fact, they will not be invited to baptismals, or birthdays, or any sort of occasion. and on the occasion that we do get together, i will not have the kids within 5 meters of that pig and her offspring.
i'm so upset i want to punch something out. i'm literally shaking with anger, and i haven't seen their snouts in 5 hours.
i should make it part of a pre nup. yes. that's what i'll do.
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November 18, 2009
I Took A Test
Written by kidbaliw at 08:46 PM. Filed under real world, what I'm feeling.
It says:
Mysterious... oftentimes, a loner. You know your true friends and only them are allowed to understand the real you.
You hide your emotions... Sometimes pretending to be always happy. Sometimes, not giving even a hint of what you really feel.
You
search for love... you’re a hopeless romantic and every time you enter
a relationship, you give your all and believe “this is the One.”
You appreciate simple things in life... You hate complicating things that’s why you’re typically up-front in any aspect.
You’re
an ideal boyfriend/girlfriend... You don’t care if your partner doesn’t
really love you as long as you love him/her. You give your all...
You’re
undoubtedly good-natured! Most of the time, people are confident to
approach you because they know you will consider them.
You’re independent! You’re also risky just like the bajaken who sail in the vast and dangerous ocean to look for treasures!
{ music } Come Back To Me By David Cook
{ mood } amused
makialam ka!
November 17, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA :)
Written by ladyapril01 at 12:11 PM.
yes! today is the birthday of my dearest father and i can say na super stressed cla because of the preparation.. haha..
takbo d2, takbo dyan, gnyan ang eksena ngaun because of this day, early this morning gising na cla, they went up early in the market to bought puto and kutsinta and ingredients for the pansit and syempre pati kmi nada2may kc sobra clang mg-panic ;p hehe..
dahil sa celebration na toh, napaaga rn ako sa pag-ligo because i'll drop by in SCC pa for the celebration of my younger brother, i'm the one in-charge kc on that.. hayz! ayun, nagpaganda ako kht maganda na.. haha.. thankz to christian kc he's the one who helps us in distributing the foods.. nakita koh rn ung bagong SCC building and sobrang bongga tlga, i saw also the Virgin Mary statue na tatak SCC na tlga kc nung elementary ako meron na un.. after that diretso dagupan n agad with mau nd insan renier, on our way, super bongga kc nka-tricycle kmi from lingayen to dagupan not to mention ung init.. haha.. db bongga?? carry lng ang drama nming tatlo ;p hihi.. dmi kc nming dala as in! when we arrived at UL super busy p rn because we need to prepare the foods p kc lapit n rn mag-lunch, dlwang college kc ung ka2in, engineering nd architecture and CS kya medyo mdmi ung handa, thankz to torch bearer and markly kc tinulungan nla kmi, saktong 12 natpz ang preparation and dat's it kainan na! haha.. i lend the prayer kc ala c sir dong.. hihi..
lahat nasarapan sa food 
thankz!thankz! khit hndi ako nagluto.. haha.. ako nman ng-effort sa preparation.. super busog ako and tlgang target food koh ang puto ;p hihi.. sobrang nabusog dn because of the drinks.. super uhaw n rn kc ako, syempre, imagine morning up to lunch ako lahat, from preparing breakfast, preparing the celebration of dadson and syempre celebration ng tatay koh, buying drinks, calling the personnels and other departmet to go to CS and maintaining the cleaniness of the place.. ako b tlga un?? haha.. pero nakaya koh! AJA!
after the faculty, i called up jessica and markly to eat na and tinawag nila c ariel and dreje pra mas madami.. hihi.. while eating kwentuhan and dhil sa kwentuhan we decided to watch 2012 na super ganda accdg to ariel.. (talaga lng ha!) so after they ate, pumunta na kmi sa city mall to watch and ang dmi nming CS na nakita.. haha.. naka2gulat tlga! as in! ummm.. the movie was great kso nakulangan ako kc more on heroism ang nangyri, i want more destruction eh.. haha.. un lng ;p pero okie nman tlga ung movie ;p (napilitan ;p)
i went home late kc hininitay koh p insan koh kc alang magda2la ng mga gamit kya un.. hayz! ang hirap! ang bigat2 as in! pero masaya nman 2ng day na toh kc maraming magagandang happenings kahit na medyo nakaka2pagod pero ang importante MAGANDA p rn ako.. haha..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA
LOVE YOU!
GOD BLESS!
muah!muah!muah!
makialam ka!
November 16, 2009
Change
Written by camrivera at 09:35 PM.
You told me several times that I must change, but have you ever asked yourself about the word CHANGE? There are two words that you could put on the word "change". One. is change for the BETTER or change for the WORST. Which of these two phrases do you want to choose?
Lately, we have this never ending fights about jealousy and lack of trust. You told me that I am insecure and I always get jealous for nothing. You even highlighted the word TRUST. In the first place, I know it is my fault that I always nag you but for me, there are reasons behind all of these arguments. First, the text message that I saw from your friend, asking you if you want a "twin service". Second, someone saw you in an area that is loaded with girls. Third, the social interview question from your friend which states that "whenever you're bored, you go spotting". Lastly, you're easily irritated to me. Now from these statements, can you still ask me to trust you?
After our argument, you told me that I should change. You yelled at me and even told me words that I couldn't take. You became insensitive again to the point that you didn't listened. What hurts even more is that it is so easy for you to let go of me. All I want is for you to love me and accept me for who I am. Asking me to change for someone that I am not is hard.
I hope time will come that you'll understand why am I being like this. Clifford it is not hard and difficult to show me that I AM THE ONLY ONE in your life.
{ music } FIREFLIES by owl city
{ mood } hurt
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November 16, 2009
Do You Know That..
Written by kidbaliw at 04:57 PM. Filed under real world, what I'm feeling, broken inside.. bleeding, moving forward, the past.
Lately, I don’t know why but I have
been eagerly listening to sappy sad love songs. I’m not bitter or
whatever.. I just appreciate how the message of the songs flows through
my cold veins as it pumps blood into my numb heart.
For now, I can attest to the saying that who can say why your heart cries, when your love lies.. only time.
Unconsciously, I can sleep well as I hit the sack after my shift. I
love seeing the sunshine as it peeks through the window of my bedroom.
I enjoy taking a nice looooonnng (take note: LONG ) shower and play
with my dresses in my closet.
The pain that I have been hiding from the whole world to see is long gone. I didn’t know when but it’s gone.
Whenever I try to remember the events that shattered my life, I just
laugh at myself for I never realized that I was too blinded by my
emotions. One thing I can say without any hesitations is I do not have
any REGRETS with what I had done in the past.
When we’re in-love, we do things way beyond what we normally do. We act as if there’s no tomorrow.. in short, insanity.
It’s really ironic but that is the bittersweet truth. The pain may
take forever to descend in my heart but only time will tell when will
it end… and it did!
If only the world knew what I had experienced, they will understand
why I decided to leave it and be on my own. Honestly? It’s shocking and
very traumatic for me. I learned a lot from all those things that
happened to me.
For now, I’m thankful that I managed to survive another adversity that once colored my life hue.
{ music } If The Feelong Is Gone by Ella Mae Saison | Before I Let You Go by Freestyle | It Must Have Been Love by Roxette
{ mood } pensive
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